Miss.

You know how you miss someone, and you feel that ache deep in your chest? Or you imagine that you are laying next to them, and then you believe you are, and you open your eyes...and they're not there? And you cry because its been a week since you've seen them and you just yearn for them. You need their touch and their hug to feel completely happy again. Talking over the web cam doesn't fulfill that need.

I dream of this person a lot. And I don't ever want that dream to end, even if it's a nightmare. And every night i go to sleep i hope for a dream that has him in it. I invite it into my subconscious mind. Doesn't work too often, though.

In other news...I am officially a Sophomore, enrolled and ready. Yearbook ordered, pictures taken, agenda received, and schedule prepared. This day started early and ended early. It ended like....5 hours ago. Ha (: Goodnight world.

Mac OS X...Feels cool to say!

Yesterday was, indeed, a hectic day. First, i go to sleep at 5:30 in the morning. Then i get up at 7:30 in the morning. Then we go do errands and stuff. I got my permit, finally! (: then it was off to best buy to shop for some computers. i ended up picking a 15 inch MacBook Pro with Mac OS X Leopard. Then i got a purse thing for it, a printer (HP PhotoPro Plus), and iWork and MobileMe. The grand total was like....2,700....yes. I know, horrible.

But...thats not all.

when i get home i want to install my printer (which was the wrong one. They gave us the wrong one...) and it kept asking and asking for a password. I didn't know what my password was...nobody told me that they just leave it blank! So my computer froze up and i started crying like a big baby. This was at 2:30. So we get up at 7:30 to go back to best buy, exchange the printer, and get my MacBook worked on. Needless to say, its working perfectly now...and i love it (:

Moosci

Music can change your mood. It doesn't matter what kind of day you are having. A song comes on and it can pep you up, make you smile, or make you cry.

Music is like the core of art. You listen to music to draw, paint, write, sculpt, design, choose, feel.

My music plays according to my mood. Isn't that how it always is?

• Hyper: Telephone by Lady Gaga
• Happy: Don't Worry, Be Happy by Bobby Mcferrin
• Depressed: Desert Song by My Chemical Romance
• Pissed Off: I Set My Friends On Fire by Aiden
• Lovey-Dovey: Perfect Two by Auburn
• Thinking-Mood: The Last Day On Earth by Kate Miller-Heidke

Well...In other news I'm reading a book and making a video about it. The video has to be AT LEAST 5 minutes long. Well, this is a great opportunity in preparing me for my Video-Editing career!! I'm really excited to do this. I'm getting a new editing program, building a green screen, getting people to act for me. It's going to be so much fun. I just have to read the book and write 10 journals first. Oh, High school, you're so good to me....*sarcasm*

My Metiphorical Prediciment

It's like when you go to the ice cream place...and you say "I want twist please." and they say "oh sorry, the twist is broken. You have to choose either chocolate or vanilla. "Now, which would you choose? I have to choose, between two boys that are both wonderful in their own ways. But I don't know who to choose. My advice so far has consisted of "do what makes you happy" and "just make sure you make the right choice." well, I, for one, do NOT know what the right choice is. How would I?? I see boy 1 every day...but I talk to boy 2 like waaaay more every day. Boy 1 is hilarious and cute and nice. Boy 2 is funny and sweet and also very cute. I just can't choose.
So, tickets are on sale for how this plays out. I'm buying one. If I don't like this ending...I am DEMANDING my money back.

Just like paper.

Torn down the middle. This is crazy and it's never been like this before. I don't get it but i wish i could. It's times like these when i think..."What would Salad Fingers do?"

Well, he would probably just stick a child in the oven...or sit this one out in the safety cupboard.

But, i have neither of those options. All i have is my feelings and my thoughts. That's a lot...but not enough.

I need to talk to HOPE about this. Really, i do. She knows everything. She knows what to do. It's like...she's the realm of relationship advice. Ha, no, maybe that's Dr. Phil...or Jerry Springer? Who cares...I JUST NEED TO DECIDE WHAT TO DO.

What?!

Don't you just hate it when you are having a lovely conversation with someone and they just...stop texting. Just out of nowhere...they never text back. Its ridiculous.
Anyways, another thing...I AM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING AT HOME. I haven't been anywhere in the two weeks that school as been out. I haven't been to other peoples house...they've been to mine. UGH. I want to go somewhere D:
And i hate it when your BEST FRIEND (hope...) leaves her phone off for like two days straight and doesnt talk to me...when her blog says some very interesting things that I WANT TO TALK ABOUT!!!!!
Geez...and her brother is the person i was talking about in the first sentence. He just...stops texting. It's really, very annoying.
I NEED to talk to you hope. *GRRRR*!!!!!

Now that i have NO time...

Since there are only three days of school left...i have not so much time on my hands. Study guides, art projects, books, studying....crazy. My school chose to have final exams on the last three days of school >:O

Well, i can look forward to summer. Straight A's...new hair color...best friends...my jobs...it's gonna be fun. And ill finally be able to drive! with someone at least 21 in the car...of course.

Well, thats all. I post soooo much last weekend it wasn't even funny. Now i can hardly find time to post in all this craziness.